dawn

it brings with it the light. heat from the shining sun that reflects down upon the lowly mortals and unholy portals which infest this planet.

i began much like the sun. a power house the minute i was born. full of energy and life, drive and motivation to do better. my ignorance was bliss, and for the brief period of time i had it it was perfect.


but i got older. so did the world around me. and the ignorance that spawns from playgrounds is not one that dies quickly, and it breeds hatred for not only the self, but for the society at large. infact, id say without school, i may never have become what i am today.


a fucking monster playing the part of human.

a thing in a man suit.

a reflection un-validated.

as i grew, the names got worse. it went from weirdo, to creeper, to fucking freak. and the answer was always the same; "why do you think im such a freak?"


"theres just something off about you. its fuckin weird."



heartwarming, no? and after hearing this constantly for many years, i began to reflect upon it; some thing WAS off. but what???? well. thats a story for another time.

however, my madness only began there as a seed. the final spark to the tinder came when  i met a girl named samantha. in school she would talk about seeing "that man" as a child. how right before something bad ever happened to her, she would see a tall,  faceless man.

being the lonely child i was, i knew my way around the internet. and my curiosity got the best of me.




that day, i found the fears.

and on the day, i learned what the face of my inner self looks like.






the operator symbol is more then just a mark. it represents a brokenness in ones being. it is a crossed out eye; a viewpoint tainted; a sight unclean.


it is what i experience every day.








this was my dawning.
it should be enough to explain for now.

now i must rest, it has been a long night of survival.

)*SERVE*(